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Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Standing on the edge of a cliff

Picture a cliff, of the Grand Canyon variety.

I stand with my toes at the very edge of it, looking down at the depths of the valley below. But the gravel is loose, and I start to loose my balance as my toes start to slip off the edge. Arms swinging like windmills, with just one toe left on the edge as I try to right myself, there is just a moment where I'm frozen in foot on the edge, the other out over the vast canyon below me, it is in that last second that I wonder if I'll ever get both feet on land or not. I know, in that very instant, it will take nothing less than a  miracle to get me there.

That is where I am today.

We received an email this morning (this afternoon in Ianna's country). A final decision as to weather or not we'll be able to adopt her will be made tomorrow.


It has all come down to tomorrow.

I read the email, then called Dean and could barely speak, much less read it to him. Our hearts are fragile right now, tomorrow we'll know weather or not we'll be sweeping up the pieces.


  1. Praying. Praying. Praying.
    Psalm 31:24 "Be strong, all of you who put your hope in the Lord. Never give up!"
    Hebrews 10:23 "Let us hold firmly to the hope that we have confessed, because we can trust God to do what he promised."
    Romans 15:13 "I pray that the God who gives hope will fill you with much joy and peace while you trust in him. Then your hope will overflow by the power of the Holy Spirit."

  2. Praying very hard Leah!! What does your heart tell you is going to happen?? Holding you all up in prayer but especially little Ianna for her fate will be decided tomorrow!

  3. Brigitte: I'm not sure...I don't know what to think anymore. Maybe this is just a way to allow time for her paperwork to get done over the winter. It *could* happen. In the meantime, we're just completing our dossier to have ready.

  4. Leah, consider yourself hugged! I'm holding my breath on Ianna's behalf. Of course I'm praying for a miracle!!!!!!! If you were near, I would have offered a cup of tea- South
    African style, with milk and sugar. It's my pick-me -up drink!

  5. Oh, Leah, no wonder you've been on my mind today. Praying now and tonight for you, Dean & Ianna.

  6. God is with you, remember this. He is with her, too, and always will be. Such a fragile little soul.. ..he would never leave her. I will be in prayer for you and sitting up tonight. There is a song on my blog under the entry: God's Army Marched.

    Maybe give it a listen. It will be okay.

  7. Praying! No words, just prayers for today!

  8. Leah, I'm praying for you and Ianna as well as those "in charge" today.